Being a grown up is sooo not easy. I used to live in my happy fairy tale world. Everything’s so pink, yellow, blue, green, red, purple, and it’s so colorful. One day I woke up and realized that this real world was scary. It may be black, my unfavorite color.
I’m 24 (and in 8 months, I’ll be 25. Gosh!) and I just put my feet on the ground. I see my friends get married and have babies. I see they rule their marriages and being real grown ups. Now I feel like I need to move forward.. I can’t live in my fairy tale world again. I need to face the reality.
Or maybe it’s simply that I want to get married like any other else? Yes I want to get married but am I ready for that? What if it fails, what if it’s just a dream, what if this fear keep haunting me down, and I have lots of ‘what if’ on my mind. This what-if really scares me.
I want to know if my friends ever felt this. Were they afraid or they just knew they had to do it? Is it that simple? Oooh wish someone would give me the perfect answers for this.